This is one of the days when the title for my blog most aptly fits. It's been a little while, and almost every day I feel like I should write here; but, again, by the time I have a computer and enough time to write... you guessed it... I have forgotten most everything I wanted to write. Additionally, I always debate with myself over what level of English I should write. Should I write complex sentences with irregular words for my own ego? Or should I write everything in layman's terms so that all may understand? And sometimes I'm tempted to write in Denglisch.
Actually, I'll go ahead and mention what is most weighing on my mind at the moment. I'm putting off getting caught up with homework. The beginning of my semester was crazy, I signed up for classes late, and nearly didn't get the money I needed to attend classes. (ironically, now that my classes from Bremen have fully transferred in and I get credit, I don't even need any classes) But I'll continue with my current situation... I started classes late, and with little money, so I ordered the books I needed for classes online in order to save money. However, with shipping and such, and joining everything almost a week late, that put me 2 weeks behind the class, as far as reading everything I'm supposed to read. In one of my classes, I'm even further behind because one of the companies I ordered books from couldn't actually find the book I paid for... so I just got it last week... about 6 weeks behind the class schedule. Point being, today I have accomplished nothing. I've had the entire day free, and the house to myself, but only played a new video game. (In recent years I've played very few, but in the last few months I've suddenly had the urge to play a lot. I don't understand how I could go from not wanting to play video games for years, to suddenly preferring to play games instead of doing anything else.) In any case, today I have consistently put off doing homework, and it's giving me an antsy feeling, a certain dread that constantly creeps up on me and weighs my shoulders down with guilt and responsibility. I have had a horrible headache for most of today, so I have been less than eager to start reading all the philosophy pages on which I need to catch up.
So, here I am, online with everything and nothing to say, a headache that's most gone away, and a sense of guilt about not doing the things I told myself I would already have accomplished. I think if I just told myself I was going to get nothing accomplished today I would be better off. Instead, I kept telling myself that I would do it later, later, later today. That's not going to happen, or at least, it hasn't yet happened. I think that's the biggest weight, the watching of the minutes' and seconds' hand tick-tock and chop my day away. So, I'll decide now that no studying is going to be accomplished tonight and I'll relax and enjoy my evening without guilt. Tomorrow can be used for schoolwork and studying (all for classes I no longer need).
Hmmm, sometime soon I'll write about the new developments with my graduation... well, prospective graduation. Bis bald....
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