The anger I felt so sharply yesterday has ebbed some. I was angry for being foolish and breaking my own rules. I have rules, principles actually, to keep my life simple so that I can understand living without getting lost in too many little details. It's my way of letting go and living without overthinking everything.
Valentine's Day was difficult too. At my age and in my region I should be married with 2 kids by now. I'm not. Almost all of my friends are. I felt like doing something yesterday, hanging with some friends, having fun, but everyone I talked to was busy with their boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband or something. I realized I'm almost the only single person I know. Normally this doesn't bother me, it's better to be single than with the wrong person, but yesterday, it just sucked balls.
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